I saw this one... looks really good! really feminine!

Its just the beginning of yr 3 and im beginning to feel the heats. On sunday, dont know feeling stress over what, was feeling stress that night. Guess was stress over yr 3 projects, modules, so many adult nursing and DG... I tried to call Tina, Cynthia but no one picked up their phones. I also met Y. that night... but she said she was also very stressed as she is in 4 weeks of attachment at CGH and needs to do case study even though shes only in the 2nd week of attachment. Yes, i know how she feels cos ive gone thru them b4... and she also must know that theres a God whom she can cast her cares on, she can trust for peace. Well, i believe it will all be in His timing, that one day she will come to know Him! :) As i went back last night, i suddenly remembered the psalm that Cynthia shared during her testimony sharing at TGIF 2/3 weeks ago... When i read it, i felt peace. This is what it says:

Psalm 23

The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not be in want

He makes me lie down in green pastures
(I imagined that im in the field, with the Lord and He made me lie down on the grass)

He leads me beside quiet waters

He restores my soul

He guides me in paths of righteousness for His name's sake
(imagine Jesus my shepherd guiding me)

Even though i walk through the valley of the shadow of death
(right now, my valley of shadow of death is my year 3 yr)

I will fear no evil, for You are with me
(Jesus is with me, who can be against me?)

Your rod and your staff they comfort me
(the sight of His rod/staff comforts me, as it shows He is with me)

You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies
(once again-If the Lord is for me, who can be against me?)

You anoint my head with oil

My cup overflows

Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life

and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever
(God promises-we will be with Him forever)

Isnt it peaceful? Imagine someone whom you ultimately put your trust/securities in. It can be your father for some, your mother for some, your bestfriend/boyfriend/husband/wife. Imagine you are alone in a small lane. Suddenly a gang comes, threatening to beat you up and you are all alone. You dont know how to fight. How do you feel? Afraid right? Suddenly the person whom you put your trust in comes in and the gang, afraid of that person, runs away and never came back. Even that person's belongings (eg. bag, etc.) make you feel relieved. That person says,"... (your name)... , dont worry, I am here. With you." How do you feel now? peace right? relieved and relaxed right? This is how Jesus is like to me. He's my shepherd, who's guiding me. When i face troubles, He is always with me. After i meditated on it, peace came over me. I believe that is God. That is His peace. Then when i saw km's email again, i was also reminded that this was the verse we focused on in SM retreat! Wow! God truly spoke! :)

-Smile! God Loves you! :)-

On friday night, im glad to announce that my friends-Wang Hong and Matthew Koh and my cell member-Sheer was getting baptised! wow! its great once again to know 3 people who are getting baptised on the same day, same time and same place! Wow! Amazing! This is God's divine plan. :) Baptism is a joy because it is a symbol of new spiritual birth, and its a symbol/display of your commitment and heart to God and others around. It is also a symbol of your love for and it is also a testimony itself of how God has been so real in our lives and how He has turned our lives around for the better! :) Congrats once again, to the 3 of you! :) Really happy for u guys...


-Smile! God Loves you! :)-

Hey blog,
i'm back. recently got lots of things to do, esp in school, now where im a yr 3. Dont know why, but i just feel uneasy being a yr 3. I know that being an SM as well as a yr 3 nursing student isnt easy, but i know and i must remind myself that the Lord is with me. Right now, i dont know why, im thinking of my disciples. How to keep them coming for DG. How to love them for who they are and build r'ship with them. As for being a student, how do i fix my timetable and DG timings. Sacrificing time with friends, especially Aini. When to start studying. All these are my worries. But i know i shall cast my cares upon the Lord, bcos He cares and He's there. :) Wonder how's Antoinette doing at encounter weekend too. :) Hope she really encounters Him herself. :)

-Smile! God Loves you! :)-

Hey, sorry for not blogging these few days as i had been busy, preparing for school and my ah ma's 80th birthday. Hmm. Many things also happened those days and i thought i could blog them down. On friday, my friend and i went to school to buy books and exercise. Well, we thought we could go into the gym in our attire, but cant. In the end, we din go and exercise as we had planned. -_-"

On thursday, my grandma from m'sia came after so many years. I have not seen her for 2 years. well, at least she did come to see us this time round... and she still looks healthy, despite her age! :)

Saturday was my other side grandma's 80th birthday. Its a super grand occasion, cos it was held at a good hotel. However, i find the ballroom too small and the entrance to the stage from the main door is also short. Well, it was a good night and my granny was happy, cos its the first time the whole family chipped in to celebrate her birthday! Well, in the happy occasion, unfortunately something happened to the family which sort of destroyed the night. I dont wanna say too much on this issue, cos its my family issue. Well, as those happened, i felt sad for them. When i heard and saw this happening, the Lord imposed on me a burden to pray for them. Nonetheless, my ahma was still happy that we performed for her on her birthday. :)

Today, my school reopened. This time now, i am a Yr 3!!! Time really flies fast man. Its like as if i just started my first year yesterday and now im going to start my 3rd and final year in poly. Well, im still looking forward to a good year ahead! I know God will be WITH ME! :) While i was having dinner, my dad got angry again. This time, its over a small matter in the coffeeshop with a shop owner. As i witnessed all these happening, i was wondering, looks like hot temper tends to run in our family. Im kind of worried-now my brother and i witness all these. What if in the future, my siblings and i become as hot tempered as my dad? I break all these and renounce all these curse in Jesus' name. God will guide us and heal us...
-Smile! God Loves you! :)-

Just came back from the day stay of my SM (aka Spiritual Mulitplier) retreat...Apparently as a new SM im supposed to camp there, at Praisehaven, Salvation Army (the popular venue for Encounter Weekend camps-hee). Recently, i had a lot of struggles concerning my results and my parents' permission for going to the SM retreat. One of the reasons why they din even let me stay overnight is cos of something that happened in meta camp in dec dat led me to stay in hosp. :) anw, ive let go of that incident a long time ago le. Its really an accident, i can say. :) Yesterday, bcos of this permission thingy, i had a pretty bad start of the day, bcos of sth happened btw me and my mum regarding the retreat thingy. Ive been hurt by the words she used on me. :( and yes, i managed to pour out my feelings to the other SMs as i shared...

Also, as i was preparing my heart for the camp, the Lord reminded me again how im called to be an SM for a purpose, in Jeremiah 1: 5-19. Basically Jeremiah 1:5-10 speaks to me most. It says:

" "Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart; I appointed you as a prophet to the nations." "Ah, Sovereign Lord,", I said, "I do not know how to speak, for I am only a child." But the Lord said to me, "Do not say 'I am only a child.' You must go to everyone i send you to and say whatever I command you. Do not be afraid of them, for I AM with you and will rescue you," declares the Lord. Then the Lord reached out His hand and touched my mouth and said to me," Now i have put my words in your mouth. See, today i appoint you as ruler over nations and kingdoms to uproot and tear down, to destroy and overthrow, to build and to plant."" Jeremiah 1:5-10

Wow! isnt that already a confirmation? in december 2008 at Encounter Weekend, my group leader, Charmaine, prophecised this verse over me as she was praying for me. At that time i did not understand what this word meant. Now, recently, as i follow my daily devotional, the Living Life, the Lord yet again reminded me of this scripture. What a beautiful reminder from Him! I believe that this verse, now shows me again that the Lord again called me to be an SM for a special reason! also just last sunday, this verse was one of the verses that Ps Khong shared during his sermon on sunday.

But i know, as i embark on this journey, i know that this journey will never be an easy journey at all. There will confirm be obstacles like my disciples not coming for dg, etc. So its never gonna be easy. My previous SMs, cheryl and Tina can testify to that. :) But even though being an SM will never be easy, but i know , that , as God said to Jeremiah "... for I AM with you and will rescue you...", He will always be with me. :)

I wanna thank all my previous SMs, Tina, who has been my SM since yr 1 for the whole year, and Cheryl Lim, my yr 2 sem 1 SM, for always being there for me, guiding me, "training" me and for loving me, praying for me and accepting me in the DGs. The lessons i learnt thru u will never be forgotten. :) God has indeed used you greatly for His glory. :) God bless u as you all go on your ways after you graduate. Keep in touch, k? :)

-Smile! God Loves you! :)-

Hey blog, havent been posting here for a few days. Hope the readers dont mind, as these few days im tired and many things happened. Firstly, my attachment has finally ended and thank God i passed. :) but im also saying goodby to people who like to bully me, keep saboing me and dont accept me for who i am. Well, this world has all kinds of people. So have to just tolerate this sinful world...

2ndly, when i was on my way home somewhere, something happened. At downstairs of my block, after chatting for some time with my bestie, i met 2 neighbours praying together. It happened that one of the neighbours were praying for the guy neighbour, as he had certain problems and was finding a church to go to. Then i gave him the large poker card. Little did i know that i was the 2nd sign that God used to show him to come back to FCBC... :)

3rdly, on saturday i had a great party. Thank God for the friends, games and food that i had. Thank God for my cg.... the games and video testimony and personal testimony touched me and my good friend, yee hung (shes one of my best friends in poly), who was there. I really thank God that she came cos i was afraid that she wouldnt come actually... Plus im glad that Cynthia's sharing touched her... and finally i got the chance to share the gospel with her for the 1st time... :) Also, i finally went to buy my black mini jacket and it looks quite suitable for my white dress that im wearing with for my ah ma's 80th bday thats coming soon... Its gonna be v grand you know. Some more its at a hotel... hotel already glam enough lah. Will show u my pic when i have it okays? :)

Lastly, today, A. finally went to my church for the 1st time with me... glad that she heard the good news again... and its always great to be in church, cos i have my good friends that i always can 讲话讲不停的，den whenever i reach my mrt station, always so sad, but haha, its always great to have friends like dat, wads more we r a family in christ. :)
-Smile! God Loves you! :)-

Today, as i was reading My daily devotion, The Living Life, the Lord spoke to me. This is about The prophet called Jeremiah, the prophet. In this passage, Israel has "forgotten" about God and worshipped other Gods than the one and only God himself. In this passage, the Lord shows that he does care about his people in Israel. But the Lord was upset because the people of Israel has left him to worship other Gods. Yet, only when they needed help, then they come to God for help. The Lord was angry at His people for forsaking Him and he feels forgotten by his people.

This shows me that the Lord understands how i feel. At times i feel as though im forgotten by others bcos i dunnoe, maybe im quiet or what and i feel misunderstood and left out by others, the Lord says "Joanne, I understand.I understand how you feel. You are not alone. :)"

-Smile! God Loves you! :)-

Joanne!你是白痴吗？你以为自己有这么多钱可以花吗？那些钱是爸妈辛苦赚来的钱leh!以后可不可以别花那么多钱啊？就算你要迟到，你还是搭巴士吧！
-Smile! God Loves you! :)-

Hey friends, you are and will be treated to a series of topics that discuss about your life and it may be so much better than going to bet/gamble your life at the new Resorts World! Come for it and your life never be the same again! :) Who knows, when you come back home, your life may be different from what it is now? :) Yes, many people in this world gamble but for money in which they may in turn lose it. Or many people turn their hopes on machines who may or may not give them money in return, but not on Jesus. Yet, you may not know, the greatest treasure on earth is not money, but Jesus. People find joy in all other sources but find that they still dont find joy/hope/love. Jesus can give you Freedom F.O.C.. Healing F.O.C (Free of Charge). . Love F.O.C. Joy F.O.C. Hope F.O.C . a life changed for the better and transformed forever F. O. C. . All He needs is your heart. So, are you ready to come for your life's BEST BET? :)

The Great Exchange
You CAN overcome-3rd/4th April 2010
You CAN be SPECIAL-10th/11th April 2010
You CAN WIN!-17th/18th April 2010
You CAN be HEALED!-24th/25th April 2010
You CAN do GREAT THINGS!-1st/2nd May 2010
You CAN dream-8th/9th May 2010
YOU CAN be HAPPY!-15th/16th May 2010

Come Join us on saturdays at TCT (Touch Community Centre) or Sundays@Max Pavilion! :)

-Smile, God Loves you! :)-

Oh no! i think im getting fatter day by day! These few days ive been having to eat!! and ive been eaten lots of fried food recently! just on sat, i had botak jones for lunch. Pizza for dinner. Last week or something like dat, i had pizza again for mealtimes! and today i had craving for fried rice some more! Oh no! must really resist the temptation to eat, if not i will grow fat! Its not that im that concerned about my image, but its my health that i care about! if i eat too much, i may have a heart attack sooner!

Wow. today for the 2nd time in my life in fcbc, i served in hospitality again! the first time was a few years ago, when there was youthnet service. Now the hospitality system is totally DIFFERENT. Haha. Its more than just wearing a cool vest and cap... haha! now i get to know how the hospitality people always do it and greet people! haha. After service i was in the consolidation room. you know what? the consolidation room was actually full of people! :) wow. ive never seen so many people being consolidated before. But since it was Lynn and i and the 2 other girls' first time doing in the consolidation room, we were all very blur as to what to do. haha. so we just stood there and just out the forms and i even lost my way from expo hall 9 to the consolidation room at hall 10. :(

haha. But i know now how to do, learning from this experience. Anyway, next week i wont be serving anymore, as it would be val and sheer's turn to serve. As for when will i get the chance to serve again, im not sure either, as FCBC got many of us youth. But its a good experience, really. Yeah. XD

Thank God for this weekend! Thank God for all the TGIFs! :) Thank God for all the parties that everyone in our church had! :) This weekend, i call it the Harvest weekend, cos its a weekend of harvests. Many people came to know the Lord through all the different parties everywhere! :) There's this patient that i reached out to when i was in IMH, she was very receptive to hear the gospel when i told her about it. I managed to follow up with her, keep in contact with her and now, shes agreeing to attend the adult network's cell group, which she was invited to! Praise God! :) I also felt that che could really connect with Susan Soh's testimony cos of her past! :) Thank God! Hallelujah! Just yesterday also, i managed to do TGIF for my ID service as well, as what i've written in my blog yesterday. Now i just received the update from Viola that there were 5 salvations! wow! Praise God! :) Glory to God! :)

Other than that, my own TEENs cell group (Hannah, WeiLing, Net, Jessica, Megan, Gabrielle, Alicia, Yun Wen, Celine, K-cia, E-dyl and Joyce) (sorry if i missed out any of your names, but you are included as well! :)) had TGIF on friday too. I heard from Cindy, my cell leader that they invited 22 PEOPLE!!! Wow! Good job, girls, Keep it up! :) well. i heard that there are no salvations yet, but there were at least 2 people who indicated that they wanna know about Jesus more! wow! :) jiayou girls, you can do it! :)

Also, this weekend ive also been praying continually for Yee Hung, Melissa, Belinda, Regina. Belinda, i know right now that your heart is broken by whatever that has happened. Jesus is crying with you too. cos he understands. Moreover, you have a friend in me too! :) continue to trust in Him always. :)
Melissa, Yee Hung n Regina, you 3 are precious. Very precious indeed.. You are who you are. Mel, you are NOT boring. YOU are YOU. Same goes for you, Yee Hung! :) I love you for who you are. You 3 are unique in your own ways. :)

Alright, got to go for now... Hope that i will have the courage to let my mum know about my results and for my attachment! seriously i dont feel like going for attachment tomorrow, but nvm, God is WITH me! I can do it, no matter what the challenges are! :) jia you jia you jiayou! :)

Today i had a great time indeed. Great time at TGIF for the ID service. Thank God for the many volunteers who came and helped out today, especially CCC staff, selina, who brought her non believer guy friend (not BOYFRIEND) to help out. Hope God will minister to him as well... It was tiring but with many helping hands, the overall 成就was good. Good Job, to all volunteers! :) Before the service, i had a great time fellowshipping with Wang Hong and Wendy. Good to hear from them how they have been doing, especially over the last few days. Wang Hong and Wendy, good job in sharing the John 3:16 to your cell members yesterday and to Wang Hong, is also good to share your testimony to your friends! :) I'm sure God will touch the lives of our friends thru us and our testimonies. :) and congrats dat u r going to get baptised soon! :) Look forward to more catch up sessions ya... :) Today i could see that my intellectually disabled people had lots of fun and especially during the games, handicraft and worship... during the handicraft, i managed to share the John 3:16 with this young boy, who was hyperactive and couldnt sit still. Although he didnt want to receive christ, im sure he was touched still by God. :) God really touches people in amazing ways, cos there were also many salvations and 1 rededication during the service. Thank God! :)

and to belinda, wonder how are u feeling now. Hope you are feeling better. Do not let this incident stumble you. I can really understand how you feel, although i cant put it in words. I will always be there, listening to you. :)

As i approach Good friday, I am yet reminded again of the Lord's love for me. On this very day He died on the cross for me, while im still a sinner. As i listen to this song: All for Love again, im refreshed again by His love. Although ive listened to this song many times, now i understand the meaning!

-All for Love-
All for Love, a Father gave
For only Love could make a way
All for Love, the heavens cried, for Love was crucified

Oh How many times have i broken your heart
But still, You forgive, if only i ask
And How many times have you heard me Pray,
Draw Near to me!

Everything i need is YOU,
My beginning, my forever!
Everything i need, is YOU!

Let me sing, all for Love
I will join the angel song
Ever Holy is the Lord
King of Glory, King of All

Oh how many times have i broken Your heart
Still You forgive, if only i ask
And How many times, have You heard me pray,
Draw near to me!

Everything I need, is YOU!
My beginning, my forever!
Everything I need, IS YOU!

All for Love, a Saviour prayed: Abba Father, Have Your way
For they know not what they do,
Let the cross draw men to YOU,
To YOU, To YOU!

As we are reaching Good Friday (in fact its just tomorrow), many of us will be wondering-whats so important about Good Friday that we even have a public holiday? Or some of us may be thinking- what do we want to do this holiday? yet, Why not we just take some time to chill an think: what is the meaning behind easter? good friday? Friends, i want to share with you this video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5OMXJc_ECgw . My friend, that is the father's love for you. Just like how the father cried at the loss of his son, He (God) cried when He sent His beloved son Jesus Christ on this day, Good Friday, to suffer and die for us, while we were yet sinners. Like how the father decided that He rather crush his own son than to see everyone on the train die, God loved us so much that He'd rather crush Jesus on the cross than to see us suffer for eternity in the consequences of our sins. My friend, Jesus loves you. It is on this day that Jesus shed His blood, for YOU. Jesus paid the price for your sins! :)"For God so loved the world, that whoever believes in His son shall not be perished but have eternal life." John 3:16. Jesus (God) loves YOU so so so much. Friends, in this world, you may be lonely, full of worries and problems and think that no one understands. Well, Jesus does, and He has promised that He will never leave nor forsake you!

Well, if you ever feel a touching in your heart, or want to know Jesus,
please pray this prayer with me: Dear Lord Jesus, Thankyou for dying on the cross for me. I know that i have sinned against you and i am really sorry. Lord Jesus, please forgive me. I renounce every sin that ive done in my life. Please help me to avoid sinning and come into my life and be my Lord and Saviour.Help me follow you all the days of my life. In Jesus' name i pray, Amen! :)

Hey peeps. Yesterday while i was going home from my afternoon shift (i reached marine parade at 9.50pm), was so tired and was listening to some praise and worship music when suddenly out of nowhere, near my home, a blind old man appeared in my sight. I was thinking-should i just ignore him and go home and rest? But i did not feel good when i tried to walk away. So immediately i went to ask that guy where he was going. It turns out, he wanted to go to the bus stop but since he couldnt see, he was frantically searching and turning around trying to find some form of way to get there. As i guided him, i found out that he's actually the president of Singapore Association for the Visually Handicapped! I guess, if i just walked home and ignored him, who knows what may have happened to him and where he will end up! Also, if i just ignored him, i would never have known that he's the president of SAVH! Wow! I was wondering- is this by chance or what? I dont think so now. cos this verse has been repeating in my mind since yesterday morning: "The King will reply: "I tell you the truth: whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of mine, you did for me." Matthew 25:40. Coincidence? Nope. :)